[Well that second statement certainly helped!]

I really appreciate it. You've got no idea how fucking much that means to me, kyoudai.

[The fact that he can still call Ishimaru that after what happened means so much to him too.]

Shit, I've been so fucking worked up about all this. I'm sorry. I really will try to focus on what we're doing here instead of what happened - or will happen - back home. Moping around ain't gonna do anyone any good.