[There are several long, uncomfortable moments where he just lets himself cry; he's dropped his gaze and he's pressed his hands hard against his legs where he's sitting as though trying to give the energy coursing through him somewhere to go, and even though he hears Blake he isn't really able to offer much outside of squeezing his eyes shut and nodding, the gesture tight.
But after a while, he calms down; he's still twitching a little and his eyes are still brimming something fierce, but he manages to get a grip on himself, taking a few somewhat angry-looking swipes at his eyes with his sleeve.]
...I don't make it, either.
[His words are surprisingly firm, despite the topic, and his tone is as blunt as it always is; his shoulders rise and fall a bit, somewhere between a sigh and a shrug.]
I don't know when it's going to end, but I'm pretty sure that if I went home now, I'll die within...somewhere between three days and a week. Because one of my friends is going to kill me. And I think I'll have to help to kill two more of them before I die - I'm going to have to...help to kill my brother.
[That heavy, blunt affect isn't going away from his words; it's...strange, how clinical his tone has gotten. For an admittedly alarming moment he can't feel anything; he's aware of where he is and he's still more than capable of seeing and being aware of what's happening around him, but it's like when he received the news the first time, when Naegi told him what happens to Mondo and himself - he just freezes up and he can't feel anything and the realization that it's beginning to scare him is what brings him out of it.
When he looks back up at the device, his expression has shifted again, though this time it's into something decidedly more determined.]
That's...that's why I want to believe there's good in everyone - it would be easy to say that there's no good in the world, if something like that can happen; it would be easy to see bad things everywhere, to assume that everyone might be a bad person. But I've...I've never believed in doing what's easy. The only way to move forward is to persevere; to follow the path of hard work and dedication, to maintain peace and order, and to ensure that justice prevails, even when no one else understands. And you can't do that if you assume everyone is evil.
[He swipes at his eyes again.]
Ah, but we're...we're getting off-track, aren't we? I'm sorry.
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But after a while, he calms down; he's still twitching a little and his eyes are still brimming something fierce, but he manages to get a grip on himself, taking a few somewhat angry-looking swipes at his eyes with his sleeve.]
...I don't make it, either.
[His words are surprisingly firm, despite the topic, and his tone is as blunt as it always is; his shoulders rise and fall a bit, somewhere between a sigh and a shrug.]
I don't know when it's going to end, but I'm pretty sure that if I went home now, I'll die within...somewhere between three days and a week. Because one of my friends is going to kill me. And I think I'll have to help to kill two more of them before I die - I'm going to have to...help to kill my brother.
[That heavy, blunt affect isn't going away from his words; it's...strange, how clinical his tone has gotten. For an admittedly alarming moment he can't feel anything; he's aware of where he is and he's still more than capable of seeing and being aware of what's happening around him, but it's like when he received the news the first time, when Naegi told him what happens to Mondo and himself - he just freezes up and he can't feel anything and the realization that it's beginning to scare him is what brings him out of it.
When he looks back up at the device, his expression has shifted again, though this time it's into something decidedly more determined.]
That's...that's why I want to believe there's good in everyone - it would be easy to say that there's no good in the world, if something like that can happen; it would be easy to see bad things everywhere, to assume that everyone might be a bad person. But I've...I've never believed in doing what's easy. The only way to move forward is to persevere; to follow the path of hard work and dedication, to maintain peace and order, and to ensure that justice prevails, even when no one else understands. And you can't do that if you assume everyone is evil.
[He swipes at his eyes again.]
Ah, but we're...we're getting off-track, aren't we? I'm sorry.