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Kiyotaka Ishimaru (石丸 清多夏) ([personal profile] ardent) wrote2013-09-05 10:12 pm

006. Text/Action for Violet City

[TEXT]

[Today's post is a bit different, the usual video completely absent; he's not been much in the mood for talking to others lately.

However, there are reasons why he thinks he probably should. So text it is.]


As much as we don't always understand or like it very much, the experiences we've had in this place are things to be cherished, I think. It's a good opportunity that we've been given, to meet others we might never have known and share ideas that we might never have come across otherwise.

I feel very blessed to have met all of you. If I haven't spoken to you, then I want to eventually; I'm sure there are things we can learn from one another, if given the opportunity. I still haven't found what it is I'm supposed to do with myself here - but I don't think that stagnation is acceptable, either. For now, I think "working on making things right" is a satisfactory goal, and one that I need to keep in mind more often, maybe.

Either way, I hope that today is a good and productive day for you - and if not, that tomorrow will be better.


[...it's a little subdued and Not Exactly Okay - by Ishimaru's usual standards, anyway - but he sends it anyway; it's just something he's needed to get out there, really.

Somebody's dealing with his first sudden-disappearance-from-Johto experience over here; it's not going too well, but he's trying to get back on track the only way he really knows how.]



[ACTION]

[Ishimaru's been making himself scarce lately; he's used the few days he's had since turning twenty to throw himself into being a complete workaholic, and while that's been good for replenishing what he's spent (and he's been spending much more than usual over the last couple of weeks, something he's been feeling intensely guilty about), there have been other abovementioned reasons for his radio silence and general avoidance of everyone.

But he's off today and the streets of Violet City are welcome, even if he does seem a bit jittery. He's out of his normal uniform, for one thing, and it's still something he's completely unused to - the military-style boots are the same, of course, but he's got black pants on under them, the stiff ones he usually uses for travelling purposes despite the fact that he's doing nothing of the sort just now; as for the rest...he has no idea where Naegi even found the thing in Johto, but he is currently +1 trendy-as-hell hoodie, white with red and black accents and more zippers than he knows what to do with. He still feels more than a bit out-of-place wearing it, but it's something he could get used to. Maybe. The hood's dropped back over his shoulders; it seems to be...weirdly weighted down by something, and if he's seen at the right moment, there's what's undeniably some sort of cat in there, peeking out over his shoulder. Meowth, from the look of it. A very, very runty one, but a Meowth regardless.

Of course, he's got other reasons for the nerves, apparently; he comes to a stop outside the local bar, looking up at it in the way that one does when they know they have absolutely no reason for going in there and are probably going to get thrown out because...well, god only knows why. It's a ridiculous notion, especially given that no one here seems to care about the local drinking age, if one even exists; Oowada had taken him in there shortly after his birthday, and he's come back frequently since, immediately after he's off work. Which wouldn't be too weird - he can do as he pleases, after all - if he didn't get off work in the middle of the afternoon.

Clearly, it's five o'clock somewhere.

However, once he slips inside, he's actually not interested in drinking; what's got his attention is the billiards table in the back room. That's where he goes immediately, setting the Meowth down on one of the nearby stools before picking one of the cue sticks off the back wall. It's not high-quality (nor is the table, really) but he's not going to complain; it's just for the sake of amusing himself, anyway. He'd noticed the setup when he'd come in here the first time, with Oowada; he hadn't played then, but it's what he's been coming back for.

Pool is geometry, when it comes down to it - geometry and physics, all angles and force and arcs; even so, he's still not sure where he picked up how to play. It's just something he knows how to do; if he were to dwell on it for long enough, he'd likely think that it's something he doesn't remember due to the incident in the school. But for now, he doesn't want to think; he racks up easily, and when he shoots, the break is a clean one.]
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 03:14 pm (UTC)(link)
That's...

[...a good point, sadly enough...]

Alright, yeah, I could see that, but we're not gonna talk about whether Celes is an alien or not!!
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 03:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I dunno. She's weird though, so I can't really say I'd be surprised if she did decide she liked you all of a sudden. 'Sides, she could have given you some other kind of flower or at least a different color of rose! It just looks suspicious, that's all I'm saying.
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 03:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah? What was that discussion about?
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
You can't say shit like that and not expect me to ask about it! I'm just curious!
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 06:57 pm (UTC)(link)
You didn't tell me about the motive and that fucking matters!
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
What the fuck are you--

[But he figures it out before the words are all out there and Mondo takes a step back, expression open and for a brief moment, hurt. He's quick to find the anger again though.]

That was fucking different!
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's about to counter that when something occurs to him. Yes, his first thought was about the whole mess with Daiya, but that's not the only thing he's lied to Ishimaru about. He's lied about training with his Pokémon, he's lied about wanting to fight Ryder, he's lied about a lot of things, hasn't he?

Mondo sits down on the bed, resting his elbows on his knees. The weight of what he's done is finally hitting him, and he's pretty sure he's not strong enough to deal with it.

When he finally speaks, his voice is subdued and he doesn't turn to look at Ishimaru.]


...I'm sorry. Words aren't gonna make up for it, I know that. I guess I didn't realize how often I was lying to you 'cause it didn't seem like a big deal. You don't deserve that shit. I'm so fucking sorry.
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 08:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[Mondo suspects he should be feeling more than he is; Ishimaru's in tears after all, he can hear it, even if he isn't turning around to acknowledge it - but he feels numb. Sure, he feels guilty, but even that is something that feels far away as opposed to something he's actively experiencing. He doesn't understand why this is happening, but he doesn't dwell on it either.]

I didn't do it 'cause I thought you wouldn't be able to tell. I'm not that shitty.

[He still doesn't turn to face Ishimaru, he can't.]

I'd promise you that I won't do it again, but I guess that won't mean anything. There isn't really anything I can do, is there?

[He's gone and screwed up the most important relationship he has left and he's not even feeling anything about it. That thought should make him angry at the very least. He's a bit startled to find out it doesn't.]
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[Is that it, then? Is this really all over because he screwed up repeatedly? For a moment he's tempted to say yes, that there isn't anything else to be done. That's it. It's over.

That's about the point where he starts feeling again - admittedly it's disgust at himself for giving up so easily, but at least it's a feeling - and Mondo's head snaps up and he turns to look at Ishimaru. The anger is back, but it's coupled with determination he hasn't felt like this in quite some time.]


There's no fucking way this is over! You think I'm just gonna give up 'cause I fucked up? No fucking way!

[He gets up and approaches Ishimaru, crouching down beside him and resting a hand on his shoulder. Mondo's voice softens, but he still sounds just as determined.]

I'm not giving up. I don't care how long it takes; I want you to trust me again. You're my brother, and giving up on our friendship's not an option, you hear me?
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[Mondo's response is just as quick, he moves to wrap his arms tightly around Ishimaru. He doesn't speak for a long moment, just allowing Ishimaru to get the tears out of his system.]

I'm never gonna ditch you, okay? Even if you can't believe anything else I say, believe that. Please. 'Cause I'm never gonna leave you.
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
We'll always be together, kyoudai. No matter what, I'll always be here for you.

[He's so relieved to hear that. He's not really sure what to do with it, so instead he focuses on playing with Ishimaru's hair in an attempt to calm his friend down.]
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
You can't expect a gang leader to play fair, now can you?

[It's rather obvious that he's trying not to laugh though and he ruffles Ishimaru's hair affectionately.]
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[personal profile] diamondo 2013-09-08 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh my god improvement!!]

You know I'll just skip out on 'em, so why waste your time, huh?

[He laughs too though, quite pleased with Ishimaru's words.]

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