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011. [Video/Action for Goldenrod City]
[Well, it's been a while since Ishimaru's actually been around via video; he's had a rough go of it over the last few weeks and it shows - he looks incredibly tired and he still doesn't seem to have been eating very much, and he's still looking a little dead behind the eyes compared to the usual intensity.
But for the most part he looks reasonably put-together, and he's outside, and even if it's more than a bit overcast and admittedly cold as balls he doesn't seem to mind the cold; this may have something to do with the fact that he appears to have ditched the school uniform for today in favor of a rather thick black coat, and he's got a different scarf on than the usual red one he wears - this one isn't quite as long, but it's patterned after Ho-Oh's plumage. Something he got for Christmas, really; it's about time he wore it out somewhere. And he's...certainly somewhere; it looks like one of those parks near the Center.
His gaze flicks awkwardly to the side before he speaks; it takes him a moment to find words, but when he does he tries to keep them coming, and keep them steady, and dear god it's been a while since he's been this shouty at the network in general but it's clear that whatever he's been doing, it certainly hasn't been figuring out what an acceptable level of volume is.]
There...there have been a lot of people who have come up missing lately, I think, and there have been a lot of new arrivals as well! For those who are missing someone - friends of those sent home - I...I understand that it's often difficult to move past it, and that it's a lot to take in at once! For some of us, it's better that they're sent home because maybe they have important things to do or other people to take care of; for some it...it isn't, and that can make losing people hard, when you know that whatever they're going through is going to be bad for them...
[He trails off a bit; his eyes scan upward for a moment while he tries to gather his thoughts, though he seems to shake it off soon enough.]
But...please don't worry. If you want to discuss it, even if I don't know you, we can - you don't even have to give me your name or anything, if you don't want to! It can be over text if you'd like...
[...deep breaths, Ishimaru, you are fine.]
And for those who have just arrived - well, that's also a lot to take in at once, but for different reasons! I've been here for about ten months now, and I'm still getting used to how things are done. It's a learning process, but you'll get through it!
My name is Ishimaru Kiyotaka; I'm the Super High School Level Hall Monitor, from Hope's Peak Academy's 78th annual class. If that didn't mean anything to you, that's fine, but I think there are a lot of new arrivals for whom that does mean something - if I haven't spoken to you yet, please get in contact with me so I can do so.
[...Right. Right, um. Um. Um.
Almost done here. Almost.]
...Otherwise, everyone just try to keep your heads up and your gazes trained toward the horizon! I hope that today is a good and productive day for all of you, and if not, that tomorrow will be better - we all just have to remain strong, and not lose hope.
[End feed.
Ishimaru can still be found outside for a while after that's over, however; he still seems more than a bit aimless and like he's not entirely sure what he's even doing out there, and he seems to be zoning out quite a bit when he's not directly engaged in conversation or otherwise doing anything. But hey, "outside staring off into space" has to be at least vaguely better than "in the basement and staring off into space", right?]
But for the most part he looks reasonably put-together, and he's outside, and even if it's more than a bit overcast and admittedly cold as balls he doesn't seem to mind the cold; this may have something to do with the fact that he appears to have ditched the school uniform for today in favor of a rather thick black coat, and he's got a different scarf on than the usual red one he wears - this one isn't quite as long, but it's patterned after Ho-Oh's plumage. Something he got for Christmas, really; it's about time he wore it out somewhere. And he's...certainly somewhere; it looks like one of those parks near the Center.
His gaze flicks awkwardly to the side before he speaks; it takes him a moment to find words, but when he does he tries to keep them coming, and keep them steady, and dear god it's been a while since he's been this shouty at the network in general but it's clear that whatever he's been doing, it certainly hasn't been figuring out what an acceptable level of volume is.]
There...there have been a lot of people who have come up missing lately, I think, and there have been a lot of new arrivals as well! For those who are missing someone - friends of those sent home - I...I understand that it's often difficult to move past it, and that it's a lot to take in at once! For some of us, it's better that they're sent home because maybe they have important things to do or other people to take care of; for some it...it isn't, and that can make losing people hard, when you know that whatever they're going through is going to be bad for them...
[He trails off a bit; his eyes scan upward for a moment while he tries to gather his thoughts, though he seems to shake it off soon enough.]
But...please don't worry. If you want to discuss it, even if I don't know you, we can - you don't even have to give me your name or anything, if you don't want to! It can be over text if you'd like...
[...deep breaths, Ishimaru, you are fine.]
And for those who have just arrived - well, that's also a lot to take in at once, but for different reasons! I've been here for about ten months now, and I'm still getting used to how things are done. It's a learning process, but you'll get through it!
My name is Ishimaru Kiyotaka; I'm the Super High School Level Hall Monitor, from Hope's Peak Academy's 78th annual class. If that didn't mean anything to you, that's fine, but I think there are a lot of new arrivals for whom that does mean something - if I haven't spoken to you yet, please get in contact with me so I can do so.
[...Right. Right, um. Um. Um.
Almost done here. Almost.]
...Otherwise, everyone just try to keep your heads up and your gazes trained toward the horizon! I hope that today is a good and productive day for all of you, and if not, that tomorrow will be better - we all just have to remain strong, and not lose hope.
[End feed.
Ishimaru can still be found outside for a while after that's over, however; he still seems more than a bit aimless and like he's not entirely sure what he's even doing out there, and he seems to be zoning out quite a bit when he's not directly engaged in conversation or otherwise doing anything. But hey, "outside staring off into space" has to be at least vaguely better than "in the basement and staring off into space", right?]
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[He thinks about the rest for a moment, though; he's...not altogether sure how to answer that, hold on.]
I haven't been training as much as I should have lately...I've been a bit preoccupied, that's all. But I'll be sure to start again soon, it's...
[He trails off before seeming to shake it off.]
I'm sure they're fine. My brother and sister have been watching some of them, at least.
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[The answer takes him by surprise, and he feels a little guilty.]
I didn't mean to make you feel bad about not training or anything, I'm sorry. [He just thought you'd be glad to know he's taking good care of his Christmas present. And Pokemon is usually a pretty safe subject change.]
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[Mnnnnngh. How...do...talking to people...]
It's not very fair to them either, after all. And besides, I want to get back to it; it's something I like doing.
How has Stella been doing overall? You said you've been training her - does she do well for you?
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I bet they'll like that a whole lot.
Yeah, she's great! Thank you so much. She gets along really well with everyone else on my team, too, especially my Munna, which is kinda funny.
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[She hatched a few days before Stella did, actually. ...He got a lot of pokemon for Christmas this year.]
Mine helps me sleep too. Her name is Bella. It's nice to not have bad dreams all the time, and it makes her happy to eat them.
[--oops, probably shouldn't talk about bad dreams.]
They're kind of cute. A little girly-looking, but she can't help it.
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[To his credit, he doesn't seem bothered by any of it.]
How long have you been having dreams like that? Since you came here?
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It's a little sad that he has to stop to count.]
...Almost four years, I think.
[Yeah, do that math. Although his nightmares now are more likely to be about rain and gunshots and tiny, cold spaces than they are about screeching tires and red balloons.]
What about you?
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Ten months or so. They started about a week before I got here.
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[His voice has the genuine sympathy of someone who knows what it's like.
It's a surprisingly wise tone to hear from a 12-year-old.]
Mine get really bad when it rains. ...I guess that probably sounds kind of dumb.
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If whatever happened to you happened while it was raining, it makes sense. Or maybe just if it sounded similar.
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I guess it's hard to control what makes you upset, especially if it reminds you of something bad that happened.
[It still sucks when said trigger is the weather.
Maybe that's why he gets along so easily with Ishimaru and his classmates, they don't have to spill everything about their different issues to understand each other.]
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[He trails off for a moment; he twitches a bit, his eyes sliding closed, but he manages to keep his voice even.]
Humans are designed to forget things. It's just how we work; if we remembered everything we ever experienced, we would go insane.
Even if you never forget what happened, you'll forget the details someday. Forgetting the details makes it bearable, and over time it makes the...associations, like rain, less painful. It's why nightmares change, too - I'm going to guess your dreams have changed over those four years, and that's probably why.