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- someone make him stop,
- we are yelling!!,
- you tried
012. Video/Action for Goldenrod City
[VIDEO]
[Ishimaru is outside again today, seeming to be taking advantage of the nice weather while it holds; at least he's looking at the camera today, and his gaze is shifting...a little less, maybe. He still seems a bit tired but at least he's calm; the view behind him is, once again, that square in Goldenrod near the Center.]
The place I came from put a lot of emphasis on punishment...both for what we did, and what we didn't do. Failure to act in a certain way, to do as we were told, was punished; failure to not act in the way that we were expected to was likewise punished. Rules and laws and "justice" were used to control us, not to guide or help us; instead of keeping us safe, they were used to tear us down.
No matter what we did, we were going to be wrong.
[His voice remains firm but calm through all that; he's not shouting, but he doesn't seem about to cry, either. Just...working through it, really.]
When situations are hard like that, and seem unwinnable, it's easy to forget what justice is intended for. It's meant to protect people, and most importantly, it's meant to give people hope - for themselves, and for the future!
So even if...even if you haven't always done what's right, even if you've made mistakes or taken punishment - if you choose to do right afterwards, the wrong you've done doesn't have to define you!
I think there comes a time when you deserve to be considered good again!
[...yep, there's the shouting.]
It's not going to be easy - it's something I'm still working on, too. But if we're willing to work hard and not lose hope, I think we'll all be all right, in the end! We just have to do our best.
I hope today is both good and productive for you, and if not, I know that tomorrow will be better!
[ACTION]
[Returning to Goldenrod City has been...strange.
It's not strange in the way that coming to a new place tends to be strange, or perhaps returning to an old place that's changed drastically in your absence; there's no lack of familiarity, and if anything the strangeness is caused by just the opposite - there's a weird sense of returning home to it, and Ishimaru isn't entirely sure what to do with that. He hasn't felt that way since before Hope's Peak; it's weird to experience it now, but it's not altogether unwelcome.
...granted, it's not something he has long to dwell on; he finishes the video and takes a while to just...collect himself, but eventually he heads back to the house. And as soon as he manages to get the front door opened there's a sudden sharp skittering of nails against the floor and the vibrations of twenty-odd Eevees hup-hup-hupping their way down the stairs, and he flinches a little and braces for the moment where the swarm hits -
And then there's a thud, and there is quite simply nothing.
...
... ... ...
Huh.
It takes him a moment to open his eyes, given that they'd slid closed while he was in the middle of preparing for impact; apparently the thud was the fuzzball legion all sitting in unison, and now they're just kind of parked on the floor and headtilting like confused pugs because grandpa's home and we sat and why is he just standing there.
He's clearly going to be spending some time playing with the fuzzballs today, because oh my god they did so well. c: ]
[Ishimaru is outside again today, seeming to be taking advantage of the nice weather while it holds; at least he's looking at the camera today, and his gaze is shifting...a little less, maybe. He still seems a bit tired but at least he's calm; the view behind him is, once again, that square in Goldenrod near the Center.]
The place I came from put a lot of emphasis on punishment...both for what we did, and what we didn't do. Failure to act in a certain way, to do as we were told, was punished; failure to not act in the way that we were expected to was likewise punished. Rules and laws and "justice" were used to control us, not to guide or help us; instead of keeping us safe, they were used to tear us down.
No matter what we did, we were going to be wrong.
[His voice remains firm but calm through all that; he's not shouting, but he doesn't seem about to cry, either. Just...working through it, really.]
When situations are hard like that, and seem unwinnable, it's easy to forget what justice is intended for. It's meant to protect people, and most importantly, it's meant to give people hope - for themselves, and for the future!
So even if...even if you haven't always done what's right, even if you've made mistakes or taken punishment - if you choose to do right afterwards, the wrong you've done doesn't have to define you!
I think there comes a time when you deserve to be considered good again!
[...yep, there's the shouting.]
It's not going to be easy - it's something I'm still working on, too. But if we're willing to work hard and not lose hope, I think we'll all be all right, in the end! We just have to do our best.
I hope today is both good and productive for you, and if not, I know that tomorrow will be better!
[ACTION]
[Returning to Goldenrod City has been...strange.
It's not strange in the way that coming to a new place tends to be strange, or perhaps returning to an old place that's changed drastically in your absence; there's no lack of familiarity, and if anything the strangeness is caused by just the opposite - there's a weird sense of returning home to it, and Ishimaru isn't entirely sure what to do with that. He hasn't felt that way since before Hope's Peak; it's weird to experience it now, but it's not altogether unwelcome.
...granted, it's not something he has long to dwell on; he finishes the video and takes a while to just...collect himself, but eventually he heads back to the house. And as soon as he manages to get the front door opened there's a sudden sharp skittering of nails against the floor and the vibrations of twenty-odd Eevees hup-hup-hupping their way down the stairs, and he flinches a little and braces for the moment where the swarm hits -
And then there's a thud, and there is quite simply nothing.
...
... ... ...
Huh.
It takes him a moment to open his eyes, given that they'd slid closed while he was in the middle of preparing for impact; apparently the thud was the fuzzball legion all sitting in unison, and now they're just kind of parked on the floor and headtilting like confused pugs because grandpa's home and we sat and why is he just standing there.
He's clearly going to be spending some time playing with the fuzzballs today, because oh my god they did so well. c: ]
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[Just...give him a moment, Kirigiri.]
...I was angry with everyone, after that. I hated myself more than any of you, but I would be lying if I said I didn't extend that to everyone else, either.
[...]
I think...Ishida was proof enough of that, from what I've heard.
[...moving on.]
But I'm not upset with you for what you did.
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[Maybe it is, maybe it actually just makes things all the more dismal. Who knows.]
So would you rather I not go out of my way to avoid you anymore, then?
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Who was the other...?
[He lets himself trail off, however - there's a question, isn't there.]
Ah, but you don't have to do that anymore, no.
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How much have you heard about Oogami-san's murder and trial?
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...I heard about her suicide, and why it happened - about what Monobear was doing to her, and what she eventually did about it. I haven't heard anything about the trial.
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...also, character development.]
Asahina-san tried to take responsibility for the murder. She'd been tricked by some false evidence; Monobear forged a fake suicide letter saying that Oogami-san had ended her life because she'd fallen into despair, not because she was trying to protect us. That was why Asahina-san wanted us to reach the wrong result at the trial. She wanted us all to share responsibility for what she thought had happened to Oogami-san.
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[And he does; after all, he hadn't known at the time of the second trial that they needed a majority vote, not a unanimous one.
He falls quiet again, giving his attention to the Eevees for a moment.]
I don't know if I've expressed it to you properly before, but I'm glad that you survived everything that happened, Kirigiri-kun.
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...Do you mean me in particular? Or is that something you feel about all the survivors, regardless?
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[At least, he's pretty sure it is.]
If I didn't feel that way toward all of the survivors, regardless of who they are, that would mean I would have been all right with one of you dying, whether it was just in general or in the place of someone else.
[...]
...I don't...
[... ... ...]
I don't see what the difference is, even though I think there's supposed to be one. I'm glad that you lived in particular, because I wouldn't want to see you die; I feel that way toward everyone because I don't wish death on people. I...
[He shakes his head after a moment; that's about as close as you're getting to an answer right now, Kirigiri.]
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Okay. Don't jump to conclusions. Try to figure out how Ishimaru-kun is coming at this. Don't pick a fight. Don't dismiss him as being stupid. Don't be arrogant. We can do this.]
It's one thing to say "I'm glad as many of us survived as possible"; from that perspective, the relief is something that can be applied generally to everyone who survived. It's good that the person lived because it's good that someone lived, and they're the person who did. That's a fair statement; I'm glad as many of us survived as possible, as well.
[...]
But I would also say, "I'm glad Naegi-kun survived everything that happened", and that's something personal to Naegi-kun; it's not something I could say to Hagakure-kun or Togami-kun or Asahina-san or Fukawa-san, because the reason I'm glad that Naegi-kun survived, above and beyond the usual sentiment, is that I'm aware the mastermind might've triumphed in the end if he hadn't been at the final trial.
That's the difference to distinguish.
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[...]
But if we're going to be putting it that way then yes, it works that way too, since I'm pretty sure everyone would have died had you not been there.
[...]
Several times over.
[I MEAN JUST SAYING...]
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Couldn't "useful" also be interpreted as as acknowledgement of a valuable contribution? Or maybe it'd be better to say that it's...
[...]
Isn't it really just a way of saying "you, as an individual, mattered"? Making a difference in a situation through an individual achievement...that's something worthy of being glad for, isn't it?
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[...dear god, you can practically see the sense of "...ohhhhhhhhhhhhh" click on in there
i mean it's still really weird to think about in the context of
you know
fuckin' murderschool
and he still really really doesn't like this question
but you know what that actually makes sense, sorta, so he's just going to go with it for now]
...Thank you, then. For the explanation.
[that said this entire thing is kind of pride-killing
he does appreciate it but man he is going to be spitting rivets by the end of this, what is actually talking to kirigiri about things like this without dissolving into some sort of stupid argument]
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I'm glad you were in our class, Ishimaru-kun. With your talent, you helped to create order in a situation that could've easily dissolved into chaos, and we were all better off for it.
[Okay good let's call it good at that.]
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For the longest moment he just stares, once that's out there; one of those odd, quiet noises leaves him eventually, the sort that signifies a false-start because he has no idea what to do with anything that's happening in his head right about then.
He forces himself to say something eventually, though, even if it's clumsy as hell at the start.]
I know don't I always get along with you and I don't always like you, but that's because some people just...don't get on very well. I think the feeling is mutual anyway, so there's not much point in forcing things too much because we can't be friends with everyone and that's just how it is.
[...]
...Well, usually, anyway. Naegi-kun is an exception, but that's because he's Naegi-kun.
[Ishimaru.]
But you've done a lot for all of us, even if it wasn't always appreciated or understood, and I'm...really grateful you were there, and able to help the others when they needed you. I find your dedication to the truth to be a really admirable thing, and I'm...I'm glad that you were able to fight for it and bring that truth to light, even with all the opposition you were facing in doing so.
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Maybe all this...everything has actually produced a silver lining of sorts, after all, because that...
...huh.]
Naegi-kun is Naegi-kun. I think we're all glad for him, one way or another.
[Okay, enough modesty, COME TO HER, SWEET VALIDATION. YESSSSSSSSS.
...Ahem.]
Let's both keep doing our best, then?
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...okay look it's really pitiful but you know what, it's something.]
As though I'm going to disagree with that idea any?
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I'm glad we agree.