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- someone make him stop,
- we are yelling!!,
- you tried
012. Video/Action for Goldenrod City
[VIDEO]
[Ishimaru is outside again today, seeming to be taking advantage of the nice weather while it holds; at least he's looking at the camera today, and his gaze is shifting...a little less, maybe. He still seems a bit tired but at least he's calm; the view behind him is, once again, that square in Goldenrod near the Center.]
The place I came from put a lot of emphasis on punishment...both for what we did, and what we didn't do. Failure to act in a certain way, to do as we were told, was punished; failure to not act in the way that we were expected to was likewise punished. Rules and laws and "justice" were used to control us, not to guide or help us; instead of keeping us safe, they were used to tear us down.
No matter what we did, we were going to be wrong.
[His voice remains firm but calm through all that; he's not shouting, but he doesn't seem about to cry, either. Just...working through it, really.]
When situations are hard like that, and seem unwinnable, it's easy to forget what justice is intended for. It's meant to protect people, and most importantly, it's meant to give people hope - for themselves, and for the future!
So even if...even if you haven't always done what's right, even if you've made mistakes or taken punishment - if you choose to do right afterwards, the wrong you've done doesn't have to define you!
I think there comes a time when you deserve to be considered good again!
[...yep, there's the shouting.]
It's not going to be easy - it's something I'm still working on, too. But if we're willing to work hard and not lose hope, I think we'll all be all right, in the end! We just have to do our best.
I hope today is both good and productive for you, and if not, I know that tomorrow will be better!
[ACTION]
[Returning to Goldenrod City has been...strange.
It's not strange in the way that coming to a new place tends to be strange, or perhaps returning to an old place that's changed drastically in your absence; there's no lack of familiarity, and if anything the strangeness is caused by just the opposite - there's a weird sense of returning home to it, and Ishimaru isn't entirely sure what to do with that. He hasn't felt that way since before Hope's Peak; it's weird to experience it now, but it's not altogether unwelcome.
...granted, it's not something he has long to dwell on; he finishes the video and takes a while to just...collect himself, but eventually he heads back to the house. And as soon as he manages to get the front door opened there's a sudden sharp skittering of nails against the floor and the vibrations of twenty-odd Eevees hup-hup-hupping their way down the stairs, and he flinches a little and braces for the moment where the swarm hits -
And then there's a thud, and there is quite simply nothing.
...
... ... ...
Huh.
It takes him a moment to open his eyes, given that they'd slid closed while he was in the middle of preparing for impact; apparently the thud was the fuzzball legion all sitting in unison, and now they're just kind of parked on the floor and headtilting like confused pugs because grandpa's home and we sat and why is he just standing there.
He's clearly going to be spending some time playing with the fuzzballs today, because oh my god they did so well. c: ]
[Ishimaru is outside again today, seeming to be taking advantage of the nice weather while it holds; at least he's looking at the camera today, and his gaze is shifting...a little less, maybe. He still seems a bit tired but at least he's calm; the view behind him is, once again, that square in Goldenrod near the Center.]
The place I came from put a lot of emphasis on punishment...both for what we did, and what we didn't do. Failure to act in a certain way, to do as we were told, was punished; failure to not act in the way that we were expected to was likewise punished. Rules and laws and "justice" were used to control us, not to guide or help us; instead of keeping us safe, they were used to tear us down.
No matter what we did, we were going to be wrong.
[His voice remains firm but calm through all that; he's not shouting, but he doesn't seem about to cry, either. Just...working through it, really.]
When situations are hard like that, and seem unwinnable, it's easy to forget what justice is intended for. It's meant to protect people, and most importantly, it's meant to give people hope - for themselves, and for the future!
So even if...even if you haven't always done what's right, even if you've made mistakes or taken punishment - if you choose to do right afterwards, the wrong you've done doesn't have to define you!
I think there comes a time when you deserve to be considered good again!
[...yep, there's the shouting.]
It's not going to be easy - it's something I'm still working on, too. But if we're willing to work hard and not lose hope, I think we'll all be all right, in the end! We just have to do our best.
I hope today is both good and productive for you, and if not, I know that tomorrow will be better!
[ACTION]
[Returning to Goldenrod City has been...strange.
It's not strange in the way that coming to a new place tends to be strange, or perhaps returning to an old place that's changed drastically in your absence; there's no lack of familiarity, and if anything the strangeness is caused by just the opposite - there's a weird sense of returning home to it, and Ishimaru isn't entirely sure what to do with that. He hasn't felt that way since before Hope's Peak; it's weird to experience it now, but it's not altogether unwelcome.
...granted, it's not something he has long to dwell on; he finishes the video and takes a while to just...collect himself, but eventually he heads back to the house. And as soon as he manages to get the front door opened there's a sudden sharp skittering of nails against the floor and the vibrations of twenty-odd Eevees hup-hup-hupping their way down the stairs, and he flinches a little and braces for the moment where the swarm hits -
And then there's a thud, and there is quite simply nothing.
...
... ... ...
Huh.
It takes him a moment to open his eyes, given that they'd slid closed while he was in the middle of preparing for impact; apparently the thud was the fuzzball legion all sitting in unison, and now they're just kind of parked on the floor and headtilting like confused pugs because grandpa's home and we sat and why is he just standing there.
He's clearly going to be spending some time playing with the fuzzballs today, because oh my god they did so well. c: ]
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[...]
I'm told I never relax anyway, so a lot of that is just how things always are!
[...Ishimaru...]
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[Why couldn't you just have left it at the part about believing him? Why. What do you say to this.]
[...]
...you don't have to make excuses. I'm used to that sort of reaction by now. People have trouble relaxing when I'm around, and why shouldn't they? So really, it's just...it doesn't matter.
[Where is this conversation even going now and what is the point. How is it possible for both of them to be this socially inept?
At least they haven't started yelling yet?]no subject
If it didn't matter, you wouldn't say anything about it - and besides, making excuses isn't anything I do, it's insulting to everyone involved.
[...yeah, I doubt anyone knows where the hell this is going anymore, but god, it's making great time in getting there.]
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[Because he's absolutely right. It does matter. God job on being one of the few people to actually have the balls to call Kuzuryuu out on his tsundere bullshit. He makes a weird, strangled sort of noise. As though he somehow managed to choke on whatever it was he wanted to say.]
That isn't... Fucking... [Words. How do they work.] I-If you're not making excuses then why did you tense up when you saw me!? You weren't that tense before!
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Because I wasn't expecting this to be anyone I knew, even briefly, much less someone from the same world that I came from?! What was I supposed to do when surprised by something like that?
[...You know what, that's close enough.]
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That--! [That...okay that makes a lot of sense. And he hadn't actually stopped to consider that option because it's Kuzuryuu so OF COURSE he was going to assume it was a slight against him. Because he does that more than he should. It's one of the things he needs to work on.]
Y...you--!! [FRUSTRATED SIGH. He's lost this argument entirely.]
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...I'm sorry.
[Oh hey, what do you know. It's one of those apology things they were talking about back before this whole trainwreck started. And one that doesn't involve bleeding, because thankfully this particular grievance doesn't fall high enough to warrant that.]
I wasn't trying to piss you off I just... Look, maybe you were right. Maybe it does bother me when people react like that. I just...fuck, I don't know.
[An Attempt Was Made. It's kind of a wonky, bad attempt, but it's an attempt nonetheless.]
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It's okay! I'm not mad or anything.
[... :|a ]
And for what it's worth, I'm not afraid of you or whatever people might think you'll do - you haven't given me reason to be.
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Heh...yeah, you're definitely kind of a weird guy alright. Though I think I can say with more certainty now that that's not such a bad thing in your case.