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16. Video
[It's been a while since Ishimaru's been seen on the network; the time he's had lately that hasn't been given to travel has instead been given to routine, to settling somewhere up inside his head where socializing is less important than getting things done, even though he isn't entirely sure what he's supposed to be getting done anymore. It's not the best pattern to be in, and if he must be there at all he knows somehow that it's better if it's temporary - doing this for too long leads to loneliness and that weird sense of distance when interacting with people, almost like he doesn't understand them anymore despite the fact that he sees some of them daily, and he'd really prefer to avoid that.
But at the same time, the holding pattern is familiar, though it seems that part of it - not quite knowing what he's supposed to be doing with himself anymore - has been on his mind more often than not lately.
Either way, he wasn't at work today - the weather has been horrible for two days - and so he's just sort of been studying at home all day; thankfully the Eevees haven't let that be all he does today, and once in a while they seem to send Eeveemaru to get up on the table and..."help" with whatever it is Ishimaru is trying to do until he gives in and plays with the horde a bit.
He's got Eeveemaru with him when the feed pops up, the little fuzzball up on his shoulder and looking into the 'Gear a bit too fascinatedly and wearing that little white uniform jacket, as always; Ishimaru's actually not matching him, instead wearing a black coat and a scarf he's had for a while, patterned after Ho-Oh's plumage. It's sort of a warm outfit, given that he's indoors, but it's comfortable and it's soft and the evening hours have brought some chill with them despite the heat in the house anyway.]
One of the things I've started to like about this world is how it gives so many new opportunities - not just for making friends and getting to raise Pokémon, either, though that's obviously important also! But there are a lot of challenges as well...you find out a lot about yourself when you're somewhere so far from home, I think. Some of it's good, some of it's not so good - but it's all a learning experience, and I'm glad that I've gotten to go through that here!
It's a little confusing at times, though; where I'm from, there's a lot of emphasis on being the best at what you do. You always have to keep up and never let yourself slip; you have to know what you're doing at all times, and if you don't, you need to act as though you do. It's a lot of pressure, but the thing is that it's constant, and it may sound a little weird, but once something that's constant like that goes away, you can find yourself missing it - or at least, I sort of do, I think, just because that sort of structure and pressure always let me know what I should be doing with myself. This world doesn't give us as much direction, and that's...strange...
[He trails off a bit, thinking.]
But something this place has taught me, though - and I think it's a good thing! - is that a lack of structure and direction doesn't have to mean that there's nothing that can be done - this world actually rewards hard work and steadfastness far more than the one I'm used to. With enough dedication, we should be able to achieve whatever we want here due to the way this place rewards it - we can make what we want of our time here, instead of working toward a definite goal with a narrow margin of success! It's a very freeing concept; I'm not used to it, but I think I like it, or at least the message behind it.
I still don't have a set direction that I've trained my sights in, but I think I'll find it one day, if I work at it hard enough; I hope the same becomes true for the rest of you as well! Decide what you want and work toward achieving it; you have the chance to do that here, even if you didn't wherever you come from!
I hope you've had a good and productive day; if not, I know tomorrow will be better! So just keep your heads up!
[Aaaand end feed. Sometimes talking things out does help in some ways; who knew?]
But at the same time, the holding pattern is familiar, though it seems that part of it - not quite knowing what he's supposed to be doing with himself anymore - has been on his mind more often than not lately.
Either way, he wasn't at work today - the weather has been horrible for two days - and so he's just sort of been studying at home all day; thankfully the Eevees haven't let that be all he does today, and once in a while they seem to send Eeveemaru to get up on the table and..."help" with whatever it is Ishimaru is trying to do until he gives in and plays with the horde a bit.
He's got Eeveemaru with him when the feed pops up, the little fuzzball up on his shoulder and looking into the 'Gear a bit too fascinatedly and wearing that little white uniform jacket, as always; Ishimaru's actually not matching him, instead wearing a black coat and a scarf he's had for a while, patterned after Ho-Oh's plumage. It's sort of a warm outfit, given that he's indoors, but it's comfortable and it's soft and the evening hours have brought some chill with them despite the heat in the house anyway.]
One of the things I've started to like about this world is how it gives so many new opportunities - not just for making friends and getting to raise Pokémon, either, though that's obviously important also! But there are a lot of challenges as well...you find out a lot about yourself when you're somewhere so far from home, I think. Some of it's good, some of it's not so good - but it's all a learning experience, and I'm glad that I've gotten to go through that here!
It's a little confusing at times, though; where I'm from, there's a lot of emphasis on being the best at what you do. You always have to keep up and never let yourself slip; you have to know what you're doing at all times, and if you don't, you need to act as though you do. It's a lot of pressure, but the thing is that it's constant, and it may sound a little weird, but once something that's constant like that goes away, you can find yourself missing it - or at least, I sort of do, I think, just because that sort of structure and pressure always let me know what I should be doing with myself. This world doesn't give us as much direction, and that's...strange...
[He trails off a bit, thinking.]
But something this place has taught me, though - and I think it's a good thing! - is that a lack of structure and direction doesn't have to mean that there's nothing that can be done - this world actually rewards hard work and steadfastness far more than the one I'm used to. With enough dedication, we should be able to achieve whatever we want here due to the way this place rewards it - we can make what we want of our time here, instead of working toward a definite goal with a narrow margin of success! It's a very freeing concept; I'm not used to it, but I think I like it, or at least the message behind it.
I still don't have a set direction that I've trained my sights in, but I think I'll find it one day, if I work at it hard enough; I hope the same becomes true for the rest of you as well! Decide what you want and work toward achieving it; you have the chance to do that here, even if you didn't wherever you come from!
I hope you've had a good and productive day; if not, I know tomorrow will be better! So just keep your heads up!
[Aaaand end feed. Sometimes talking things out does help in some ways; who knew?]
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We can! And that's what I intend to do, I think - it's just a matter of finding a way to do that in some sort of meaningful way!
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It's good that you have a lot of time to do that here, at least. I guess with nothing like the responsibilities you had back home holding you back...
[...er, wait. That. Sounded better in his head.]
What I mean is, I guess...for me, it's better to be able to start over. Even though I don't know what to do yet, it's a good feeling knowing it's something I can do. It will be hard, but it's not the end of the world yet.
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Sometimes starting over is the best thing for it - I hadn't thought of it that way when I'd arrived, of course, but now...it seems like a good idea, anyway.
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Yeah.
Have you been here for a long time, then?
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Yourself?
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Not long at all, actually. I think Monday will be a month.
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[And he fully realizes that sounds...a bit sad, but.]
This place isn't home, but...I do like it here.
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Hopefully you get what you want out of this place!
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I'm glad to hear that, though. This does seem like a pretty peaceful place...at least from what I've seen, so far.
[Team Rocket is still a thing, but he hasn't actually encountered anything to do with them yet.]
The...Pokemon are new, but I like them.
[...whether or not they like him is open for debate.]
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[JUST AS A PSA.]
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[...DO YOU HAVE TWENTY OF SOMETHING, ISHIMARU...]
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[...Famous last words.]
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[...]
They swarm. A lot. Throughout the house.
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...I...hope you have a big house.
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[...]
Thankfully.
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They were here first, though.
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I guess, but...they don't get a little...overwhelming, though? That's almost thirty animals in...your house.
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[...we are deploying some great logic today.]
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[...WE HAVE GOTTEN REALLY OFF-TOPIC.]
Ah, we haven't introduced ourselves, have we? Ishimaru Kiyotaka - it's a good to meet you!
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[This has got to be at least the fifth conversation in which Kaneki has totally forgotten to introduce himself almost entirely.]
Right! My name is Kaneki Ken.
It's nice to meet you too, Ishimaru-san.
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god where the hell have his manners been lately]
Hopefully everything will continue to go well for you, Kaneki-san - if you ever want to talk about anything, you can let me know!
[He's trying so hard to be social. So hard.]
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